Illumination

Gayatri Mantra has been a big part of my life is the past many years. This is the foremost mantra in Hinduism that inspires wisdom.
Its meaning is "May the almighty God illuminate our intellect to lead us along the righteous path."

I have found great solace and peace in this mantra. Nearly all evening I go back home and put on the Gayatri mantra on the deck and listen to it while I sit on my enchanted terrace. The sun is setting, birds are cruzing in for the last feed of the day, my fish are swimming about peacefully hoping for some food to come their way. Its pure bliss!!

It is here that I have often sat and tried to seek answers to life and things that happen to me. There are days when one is peaceful and thankful and then there are days when one questions life meaning and experiences. A lot of why me, why now, why him, why why...all of that happens right here on my terrace with the Gayatri mantra chants in the air.

I still remember in my younger days I used to absolutely hate coming back home. I had all excuses of not entering my house till late in the evenings. I was so happy with friends and boyfriends. They were so much fun and exciting. Although I had very loving and supportive parents at home waiting for me, I had all the excuses not to go back home. A few years back I got married and all I could think of was to rush back home. To my house, my space, my place. But, No one was waiting for me there. My better half works late. Period. I almost always have come back to an empty house with no loving family looking forward to my return end of the day. Ironic isn't it?!

Slowly the emptiness started eating into me. In spite of so many friends I started becoming desperately lonely. My house was eating me alive...slowly snuffing the life out of me. It is then nearly 5 years back I found the Divine Gayatri Mantra. Our family Soothsayer introduced me to it and its deep meaning. He could see the signs and realised that its was time for the Divine to illuminate me.

Now nearly half a decade later, I sit peacefully on my terrace garden, ALONE but NOT lonely. I soak in the mantra and feel it self reveal to me in a new way every single day. I do believe it has delivered me to wisdom. I have a great connection to this mantra. Today I realise why this is considered on of the highest and the most powerful mantras of all.

Now I find quiet strength in solitude. I am not scared of facing me, alone. I appreciate the duality of life, the yin and the yang. The very social me has respect and (more importantly) acceptance of the lone me.

I realise that Heaven, Earth and Hell are all here, together. I can't let the euphoria of Heaven lead me down the path of unrequited love of material happiness, the reality of Earth has grounded me and brought out the nurturer in me and the experiences of Hell have made me less fearful of the things to come.

We need to appreciate and understand the brilliance of our being. When in doubt turn to the Divine and not get lost in the million by lanes of life. Seed for thought?!!